A Certain Someone's Memories

[a_gentle_boy]

. . . . . . . . .

I'm sorry for what happened.  I didn't mean any of it, of course, b-but.  It still happened . . .  And I still did what I did.  I don't know if I can really apologize enough.  I'm sorry.  I'm really sorry . . .

[There is sniffling for a few moments before Lucas seems to calm down.]

I don't know if I can make up for it . . . But I heard people are still hurt after everything that happened.  I can try to heal you if you want . . . I know people will ask, but it's kinda . . . it's magic.  And I can fix blindness, too . . .

I'm really, really sorry.

[After this call, Lucas can be found sitting on his front porch looking extremely dejected.  He is aimlessly throwing a yo-yo back and forth, and although he's not doing anything particularly impressive, he seems to have some skill.]

Comments

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

I know. But . . . Is it really alright to excuse what happened by thinking that?

[windmill.livejournal.com]

It has to, Lucas. We don't have much else.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Oh . . . But even if you and everyone else says so . . . I don't know if I can excuse myself that easily.

[windmill.livejournal.com]

Your intentions were pure. If they're angry at that, nothing's going to make them unangry.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

. . .

I think I'm more angry at myself than anything. But thanks, Mr. Netherlands . . .

[windmill.livejournal.com]

You got as far as you did on the strength of your heart, didn't you, Lucas?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

I think my heart might have led me in the wrong direction this time. But I know what you mean, honest. It's just . . . I have to work it out for myself.

[windmill.livejournal.com]

...There are some things that we all need to do on our own. But not all things. Are you sure this is one of 'em?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Well, I mean, you already said you don't blame me . . . I'll probably feel better soon. Please don't worry about it.