The Truth

[a_gentle_boy]

[Having progressed through the symptoms all week, Lucas is aware that the day is coming when he's going to blab some of his secrets, too.  He keeps out of the house as much as he can, wears a mask on his face to serve as an instant gag if necessary, and when he does feel the need to blab, he spills the beans to his pet bug, who listens very carefully and doesn't judge.  Mostly 'cause it knew everything already anyway. 

It's like being on withdrawal from caffeine.  Super early Friday morning, Lucas is plugging and unplugging the phone alternately in turns, sweating rapidly.  ...He gives in soon enough.]

I... I... 

I destroyed my world.

I destroyed it!  For the sake of saving it, I had to...!  All the responsibility... It fell to me.  In the end, it was my decision, and I ... I chose to destroy it.  It was the only thing that could be done.  I didn't want it.   I never asked to be the one to choose; all I wanted was to beat Pok -- [a brief muffled sound as Lucas clenches his teeth.  he absolutely couldn't say that name it would be against everything he wanted] -- Poh... P-P-Porky.   Porky!  King P.  I wanted to beat him.  I wanted to make things like they were before...!  Before everything was ruined...

It would have been remade according to my heart.  I came here, right after I pulled the Seventh Needle, right after I awakened the Dragon.  The world was destroyed and recreated based on how good I was...  And I'm afraid.  I think about it a lot.  What if I wasn't good enough?  What if I wasn't the right one?  What if they made a mistake when they chose me?  What if... the world just stays destroyed because.... because I was too weak....

I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to go home because I think, sometimes, it'll just be... nothing.  Just... nothingness.  All that will be left will be me, knowing that I failed.  Everyone, everything I care for.  I'm afraid... And I know that because I'm afraid...... It just means I'm that much weaker.  I go on and on about love and friendship and things, but sometimes, every now and then...  It's just because I know that's what I should believe.

[Deep breaths for a while as Lucas recovers himself.  That wasn't even the biggest secret.  For the sake of keeping his urges under control, he had let it out.  So be it.]

The savior and the destroyer of the world.  Pathetic, right...?

Comments

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

[You caught him on truth day.]

It'd involve drinking, women and me as the only guy in the world.

You know, nothing special. Just that.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...

You're right; that probably wouldn't be a very practical world. Sorry if I embarrassed you.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

It's okay, I probably shouldn't be telling a little kid about that sort of thing.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Well. I have seen a nightclub before... And I guess I know why some people might consider that ideal...

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Night clubs are just another excuse to dance, drink and get laid.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Um. Pretty much. I don't know if it's something I would enjoy, but it was a way for people to ... relax.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I prefer bars. Same results, but less work.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

[Lucas will ponder this for a moment or two before coughing.]

Well. Anyway. ...Thanks for listening to me, Mr. Captain. You're a good friend.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

[Good time to end it before the truth gas gets him to elaborate.]

No problem. If you need me, just give me a call.

Oh... if you were a super hero, which of the bad guys in town would you take on first?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

I will.

And, um. ...I guess I'd go straight for Zemekis. It seems like everyone else is under his control, to some degree. But it's not like fighting him directly would work, either.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Who is Zemekis?

[Going to totally ignore the straight forward thing not working. The Captain is only good at one tactic.

Also, The Captain is definitely not in the know.]

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Zemekis is who Lucy really is. The little girl thing is just a disguise.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Oh... huh.

Any houses around town that no one is using?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

There are a lot with only drones inside, but... They're still not empty or anything.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Couldn't make it easy on me, could they?

Maybe I'll just scare everyone out of my house and use that.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

You could ask them politely, too.

Why do you need an empty house, Mr. Captain?

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

That might work too.

[Frowns a bit.]

I'm going to use it as a weapon.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...How do you use a house as a weapon?

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Never seen The Wizard of Oz?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

No. Is it about a house that turns into a big tank?

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

No, it's about a house that falls and kills the wicked witch.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...You want to drop a house on Lucy?

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Well, all the Smiths.

Lucy is kind of a small target to hit from way overhead. Though, if I catch her playing hop scotch, I guess it'd be worth a shot.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

I think you might have some trouble with the house they're already in being in the way.

[heartstar-blues.livejournal.com]

Na, houses break easy.

I drop one from high enoug hand you'll just have a big pile of rubble.