Because perception is as much a point of change as the person actually changing. Even if I do somehow change, you'll always refuse to acknowledge I did. I guess in part what I'm saying is that, if you want me to change, how do I know you're not going to just go warning people about something I haven't even done yet and to avoid me, thus making a much larger hurdle for me to have any chance of changing considering I might have the whole damn town against me at that point?

I just don't understand why you keep hoping for something you have no hope will happen.

But I will admit it's pissing me off with you saying there's something I can't do. That's what really gets me.